You are nothing to me. (x infinity)

Erase all the thoughts, all the things, all that went on.
Erase all of them, clear the slate, now it's all gone.

Your lies, and your games, and your ruse that you play on,
Erased, from my mind, from my soul, from my heart drum.

That beats ever long, ever strong with my passion.
That sounds ever loud, such sweet song and attraction

That you'll never hold, never see, never witness
Nevermore, not again, on your life, you won't have this.

I have cleared all of you from my mind, you're deleted.
All because you have played with my heart and depleted

All of that which was good, which was bright, you made dimmer.
Now you'll no longer live in the light of my glimmer.

There are no memories of you I keep inside of me
Because there was no truth to you as far as i can see

So, be gone and gone for so so long, be gone for good this time
Because i'm over all this toxic waste and i'm running out of rhyme

I chose myself and let it run, away from what was wrong
I chose to be the chosen one, and sing my own true song.

So, erase.. erase.. each tiny little fragment of my memory
I want it gone, each bit of it, So that I will no longer see

A thought, an image .. a feeling, that may still linger on
I made it so it's gone, you see.. it was always just a con.

You matter not, no more, my friend, You matter not at all.
All feelings that were good and true, are now replaced or null.

Just apathy and most disgust for all you truly were,
To think i tried to help you once. a love that was so pure.

But every little bit of that is gone forever now.
I chose myself, this is the end, and now let's take a bow.

For you will never have me, or any part of me, you see..
Cuz for now and all eternity,  you will always just be nothing to me.

x infinity.

the mask removed.

empty. vacant. hollow.  stark.  barren. dry.  & dark. & bleak
these are just the words i see when i think about what's left of  me

so cunning,, oh your lies.. oh your lies.
i'm shattered and i'm broken
and what this has done to me.. has changed me into something new.
into something that i do not even recognize anymore
into something that I do not know
into something that i'm scared of
a fortress of the strongest steel, has now been set around me here.

i recoil at the slightest touch...  i recoil at the thought of you
how demons walk upon this earth, i do not know how these things occur
i've lost my rhyme.. and every reason.
i've lost each part of every season.
i've lost the me that i once knew
it's gone and lost and now i'm screwed.
this pain and agony  i'm living in... just holds me tightly in its grip

and no one sees the light gone out. no one sees how dim its been
no one understands the kind of torture i have seen.
no one gets it quite, you see.
i live this nightmare every day.
of knowing not who or what i am. of what transpired.

the how's .. the why's.. the every part of in between
the mistakes of  magic that leaves you entrapped..
that kills your joy and belief in every possible way.

i hope you are happy with what you have done. I hope this brings you so much joy.
the way in which you have destroyed my soul. the every ounce of me that died and went to hell...
for every day and minute that i spent with you.

my back is turned on you.
no. you don't deserve to have me here
or there.
or anywhere near.

i have nothing left inside.  you took it all. you stole it all.
you ripped it out from inside of me.
you watched me bleed.. you bled me dry.
you did this all to me. you did this all to me!
you watched me die. and you did nothing.
you turned away from my pain.  my sorrow.
my devastation.


how vile can one be? so soulless..
so mean.

so destructive.

so ... you.


you see.. i have walked.., i stumbled.  i crawled upon this garden path
that you have led me on.. right from the very weary start.
this game. this farce. this lie.
just to fill your empty cup with me
just to fill your empty soul with glee..
just to take all of  which you can.
just to siphon me of every ounce of light.. every bit of  bright  that i can muster.
and now.. this is all i have.
all i have are these.
which aren't really anything.
so, you did it. you did this. to me. all of it.  i hope you're proud.  i hope it's what you wanted.
to leave me here so dead and gone.  with only vowels and some consonants.
that sound a bit monotone.. and bleed to nothing once they leave your lips..
just shallow simple tiny words.  that i have left inside my hands
like empty. vacant. hollow.  stark.  barren. dry.  & dark. & bleak
are what's remained and left of me..............................................